Homework from Cosmic Awareness 8 week Class (diving deeper into the gates of Human design) 11/5/24

Homework from Cosmic Awakening an 8 week course diving into the gates of Human Design (Ask me about it later..lol) November 5, 2024

-- Aloha Kakou, (everyone) I apologize in advance…it’s a long post.

My name is Krystal, lol I go by Kito (key-toe)😜. I am from the Island of Maui🌺.

I’m a 6/2 Manifesting Generator with a conscious core expression all about CONFLICT.

🥊 With Gate 6, the Gate of Friction, and Line 6 the line quality of being 

✌️“The peacemaker” ✌️ I most definitely resonate with the statement that growth cannot exist without friction.

My whole existence has thrusted me into numerous opportunities for drum roll please...

GROWTH, and as painful as that has been each time I am able to peel back yet another layer of my “onion🧅of self"…

I am then gifted with new eyes to see beauty within, and honor the beauty within others. 

By embracing the “👤shadow & duality" parts of myself, 

I am able to feel more at ease, and more at peace…

I AM MORE EMBODIED…or as I like to say… in-my-body. 

Growing up for me, like most 👧children who naturally (before we are “conditioned”..lol), …are in touch with their emotions,

They can tell when.. (lol excuse my pidgin language…lol) 

Aunty get “good vibes”, or … Ewww.. Uncle over there…is giving of some “creepy vibes” let’s back the “F, UP” Right? Lol…

I remember as a young child I had very very strong emotions and feelings…

Walking into a room, I felt who was happy, who was sad, mad etc., and I wanted to fix the unhappy person's feelings… so I molded myself to be a people 👯‍♀️pleaser, a 🤡clown, a good 👧 girl, whatever it was you name it, I tried to be obideint.

I didn’t understand why people were so unhappy…. And in doing so, I lost myself, because the little voice of truth/spirit got stifled, shut down, and frankly not heard 🙉

by my parent’s, or my family, but most of all myself….

Over time I didn’t trust myself, and that created a real split within, and because I didn’t trust myself, I didn’t trust others, and because I didn’t trust others…I lived in fear, fear that if I put my trust in this person, they will ultimately hurt me…so I learned not to let anyone get to “close”. 

Most times…they would say one thing and do another, and then I too began doing that to myself… Couple that with having to grow up amongst my peers…OMG…….😳🤨🙄🏫elementary, 🏫intermediate, and 🏫high school, phew…..the anxiety, the unworthiness, the shame.

The constant tape recorder on repeat…”i’m not good enough”..."I'm not good engough" ​ And because the 🌎 Universe is so awesome, it brought more and more evidence into my existence of that “truth”.

But no matter how alone I felt. In some weird “knowing way” I felt held, 🥰 loved, and 🦮guided and connected to something bigger than me…like I knew theres a sense of direction and purpose to my life.

Little by little I made up new beliefs that there has to be more to life than this…and I deserved more… I prayed to the Universe for someone to protect me, to love all of me, to adore me.

I craved freedom so badly…

I felt like I've been sheltered, and disconnected from my peers.

Well I know why...lol I was always grounded.

-(Oh boy- Title for my Next blog lol)

and at the same time I felt obligated to listen to my parents (Two layers of pressure)

But as for me, the younger version of me...I wanted to experience life ...and I wanted it now… Be careful of what you wish🧞‍♂️ for Krystal…because….guess what came wrapped up in a big ole bow…and came looking for me in a Toyota 🛻Tacoma…at 18yrs old

(Yep, that's another blogn) .

The biggest and bestest headache…😂 (there’s that pidgin again) gift the Universe 🌎 blessed me with… a FRIEND, who bit by bit started to show me A Whole New World, and new horizons to pursue…. lol just like Aladdin did.

(Evolution happened forJasmin too you know)

Our friendship turned into wild physical passion and in a few short years led us to becoming young parents, lol Then 2 years after that he put a ring on it 💍 and on

11/14 we will be celebrating our 18th wedding 💕🥳anniversary… What the fak? Really?

TRUTH BE TOLD, the conflict supply never really runs out with my 5/1 Generator husband. 😂🤪🤓🔪🗡️ And I’m pretty sure he’d tell you I’m the fuel, the fire, and the reason why his hair is thinning out...lol

It’s because of this union that I took my first steps on this wild evolutional journey over 20 years ago—and I’m still going strong! I’ll forever be on this quest, and I’m so grateful to the Universe for giving my husband the stamina to withstand (lol) the never-ending, ever-evolving versions of me. -BRUH. lol